Today I don’t feel like writing. I want to go back to bed, pull the covers up, and just wait for another day. <\/p>\n
I hate days like this. Days when I think, I’m not enough. Days when I think, I can’t do this. Days when all I can think about is how I messed up. Days when I would like to quit. <\/p>\n
I know that it’s just the old tapes and Satan trying to discourage and derail me. But knowing that is not enough to stop the lies circling my brain. I need something more powerful than mere knowledge. I need SOMEONE more powerful. And that someone is God….<\/p>\n
Amazingly, He will sometimes use people to help get me out of my cycle of shame and disappointment. Today He is using my children.<\/p>\n
It’s Spring break so my kids are home, including my oldest. As I watch them laugh and talk, I am reminded of the incredible blessing they are. The blessing I wasn’t sure I would ever have. The blessing I was sure I couldn’t handle. The blessing I was sure I would mess up. Yet, here they are because God was faithful, merciful, and gracious. And that trumps the lies every time!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Today I don’t feel like writing. I want to go back to bed, pull the covers up, and just wait for another day. I hate days like this. Days when I think, I’m not enough. Days when I think, I … Continue reading